Today, I found out one of the main causes of my depression is that my life is too sheltered and boring. My doctor and many of my friends have advised me to find a hobby. Except, everything I would like to do is either too expensive and/or impossible due to my disabilities and other mental disorders. FML
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Halloween
A failed costume, stolen candy and a very real scare: Halloween, the one night when fear is allowed.
Today, I diagnosed myself with a debilitating case of vicious circle: I am now too depressed to do the things that usually manage to pull me out of my depression. FML
Today, my depression has reached the point where I don't even have the energy to seriously pursue any hobbies. Any time I find the motivation to try something new, I immediately get discouraged at the slightest difficulties, and become even more depressed. I don't even know why I'm trying anymore. FML
Today, I realized I rarely go outside anymore due to hyperacusis, social anxiety, depression, and sensory issues. I'm also afraid to tell my family and friends about my problems, because they don't understand how bad it really is. Looks like I'm doomed to be depressed and alone my whole life. FML
Today, after 4 months of severe depression, I finally found an antidepressant that works. The downside? I no longer have any interest or gain pleasure in any of my hobbies. FML
Today, I noticed that my weekend hobby is crying. I live in a city where I don't have a single friend or relative. FML
Today, I found out the medications my doctor gave me for depression are making me fat. My main reason for depression is an eating disorder. Now, I'm fat instead of just thinking I am. FML
Today, I found out the medication my doctor gave me for depression is making me fat. My main reason for depression is an eating disorder. Now, I'm fat instead of just thinking I am. FML
Today, I realized the only things I do are work and sleep. My only friends are coworkers who I make small talk with. I live alone so I’ve got nothing there either. I can’t remember the last time I felt happy, or spoke to someone. Everyday is just a blur. I have no hobbies, no goals. Getting older is so fun, right? FML
Today, my parents want nothing to do with me because I can’t stop spending money. Buying junk food is the one thing that makes me happy, and I’ve been to countless therapists and tried every medication. FML
Today, I realised that my social anxiety, fear of people's judgment, social isolation, you name it, have got so bad that I literally have no interests. It got to such a point that I even have nothing to search up in the internet, so I just stare at an empty browser page wondering what should I do with my life. FML
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core01 30
I'd ask for a second opinion and try to find someone who can actually help you.
catalysty 23
drawing and painting has a low barrier to entry and you can do it however you like. a stick in the dirt will still let you draw. you can also try making art by combining found objects, folding paper (origami, quilling), or even tying your hair into designs.
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RichardPencil 32
You ought to take up FML commenting, It's free and having a mental disorder is a plus!
Chazzster 32
There are almost an unlimited number of hobbies - Some require money and activity, but not all. Try harder to think of something you like… For example if you like art just start Googling Art until you see something you like then save pictures that you like. It’s free, it requires no physical activity. Hint - Learn to use Google. After Googling something, click on images, then click on tools, then select large size so you see clear images… There are virtually unlimited things that you can have an interest in. Just don’t claim something that someone else has created as your creation.
catalysty 23
drawing and painting has a low barrier to entry and you can do it however you like. a stick in the dirt will still let you draw. you can also try making art by combining found objects, folding paper (origami, quilling), or even tying your hair into designs.
core01 30
I'd ask for a second opinion and try to find someone who can actually help you.
lexxiasaurus 31
then start at hobbies and activities you can actually interact and enjoy instead of creating more anxiety by being financially or physically incapable of doing such things. that's setting yourself for more anxious thinking as you're only thought is what you can't do. maybe find a new therapist as well. they should have been able to help you think up other options that are viable for you without putting you in a difficult spot financially and make sure you can do the hobby within reason without leaving the session still feeling in a rut of feeling like no one is listening