My loneliness is killing me

I use to be in a similar position years ago so I empathize with you, OP. Years ago, I use to be a pariah amongst most people around me. I was frequently antagonized, bullied, beaten and viewed as a complete loser by almost everyone in my environment. How I changed this around was by setting a new mindset that nothing was wrong with me, rather I'm just around the wrong crowd. Next, I modified my lifestyle to health and fitness. I eat right, exercise frequently and read information to grow more knowledgeable. Overtime, these modifications attracted the right type of people while removing the wrong people out my life gradually. I don't know if you can relate to being a pariah, but seeing this is an FML, it sounds like you want a social connection with individuals that care. Have a powerful mentality that you are attractive in your own right while you put yourself out there in social settings and you are bound to make consistent bonds. If you're current 'friends' aren't as consistent as you'd like them to be, perhaps it was never meant to be.

If TV characters are your "friends," you are psychotic. They don't know you and can have no feelings or opinions about you whatsoever. Seek help. Either professional or buy a lot of guns.

I use to be in a similar position years ago so I empathize with you, OP. Years ago, I use to be a pariah amongst most people around me. I was frequently antagonized, bullied, beaten and viewed as a complete loser by almost everyone in my environment. How I changed this around was by setting a new mindset that nothing was wrong with me, rather I'm just around the wrong crowd. Next, I modified my lifestyle to health and fitness. I eat right, exercise frequently and read information to grow more knowledgeable. Overtime, these modifications attracted the right type of people while removing the wrong people out my life gradually. I don't know if you can relate to being a pariah, but seeing this is an FML, it sounds like you want a social connection with individuals that care. Have a powerful mentality that you are attractive in your own right while you put yourself out there in social settings and you are bound to make consistent bonds. If you're current 'friends' aren't as consistent as you'd like them to be, perhaps it was never meant to be.

If TV characters are your "friends," you are psychotic. They don't know you and can have no feelings or opinions about you whatsoever. Seek help. Either professional or buy a lot of guns.

now that you noticed it, get your a** out there and do something about it! Take a chance, put yourself out there to make friends!