Today, and for the past few weeks, I've been hyper-aware of my heartbeat, and super paranoid that it’s just going to randomly stop beating at any time. This is a constant state for me, and it isn’t going away no matter what I do. FML
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Dead leaves, the first cold of the season and an umbrella flipped inside out: fall, the season of grace.
Today, I've known for a long time that I generally only wake up at ungodly hours in the night when something is wrong with me. Since last week, I've been doing this pretty much every night. Only now, I can't figure out what's wrong. Consequently, my anxiety is now keeping me awake too. FML
Today, if my blood pressure rises too high I get migraines that cripple me for days, even with medication. I can’t let myself get stressed, I can’t exercise, I can’t stand up too fast if I’ve been sitting or lying down, I definitely can’t have sex, and I also can’t drink coffee. Someone shoot me. FML
Today, my doctor ordered me an EKG to help my health anxiety. I have panic attacks and feel like my heart is out of rhythm, but my doctors have all told me it’s just in my head. I got the test results. I meet with the cardiologist next week to discuss surgery. FML
Today, after months of my doctor telling me that my heart palpitations are simply due to anxiety, and that I'm perfectly healthy, I decided to weight train to face my fears. Two hours later, I was in the emergency room. FML
Today, I discovered that my body will go straight to “weak and lightheaded” before it even considers “hungry.” FML
Today, I found out that what I thought could be a life-threatening issue causing me chest pains was only because I over-obsessed about it. Now not only do I have social anxiety, but I get so anxious I can create fake illnesses. FML
Today, thanks to a side effect from my medication, I'm suffering the longest mild panic attack I've ever had. I'm on day two and it shows no sign of letting up. FML
Today, I realized that over the past few months, I seem to be getting more and more prone to bumping into things, and tripping over nothing. I'm also apparently more prone to getting injured when this happens. I've always been uncoordinated, but this is getting out of hand. I'm falling apart. FML
Today, I realized that apparently there are only two general states of mind in my life: 1) Utter mental and physical exhaustion while wondering whether my job has irrevocably ruined my health yet, or 2) depression and latent panic for being an unemployed loser with no stable income. FML
Today, I got diagnosed with a condition that expresses itself in the form of violent diarrhea whenever I get nervous. Now I am constantly nervous about getting nervous about anything. FML
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cacheson 42
You should go to both a psychiatrist and a cardiologist. One or both should be able to help you.
electraliv 13
welcome to the crippling thing called health anxiety!
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cacheson 42
You should go to both a psychiatrist and a cardiologist. One or both should be able to help you.
RichardPencil 32
You're not paranoid. It will inevitably stop one day. Cheers!
cuz803 46
Practice meditation. I recommend yoga and transcendental meditation to cool your nerves. Reading a book and eating more healthy will help as well.
electraliv 13
welcome to the crippling thing called health anxiety!
tiptoppc 21
Sounds like you got myocardial issues. I’m the same. It’s sometimes due to an extra half-beat signal that hits it and the correction of extended time is what you are aware of. If you take your pulse, feel a vacuum in your chest with an extended period with no beat followed by a normal beating, check with a cardiologist. A med can stop the extra signal. I have this exact thing. Simple holter monitor if not happening in Drs office confirms it and it’s not invasive. Just a portable EKG the size of a pager. Good luck!