Today, I realized I have most of the things I wanted when I was a kid. The ones I don't have are the emotional connections. I have all of the *material* things, and I hate my life because I'm lonely and touch-starved. FML
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Fall
Dead leaves, the first cold of the season and an umbrella flipped inside out: fall, the season of grace.
Today, I realized the only things I do are work and sleep. My only friends are coworkers who I make small talk with. I live alone so I’ve got nothing there either. I can’t remember the last time I felt happy, or spoke to someone. Everyday is just a blur. I have no hobbies, no goals. Getting older is so fun, right? FML
Today, my husband convinced me to donate all the sentimental items around our house, like the kids' old toys. Now I feel absolutely gutted, like we gave away tons of our family history, but everyone else is so happy that things are less cluttered, so I just play along. I feel so empty. FML
Today, after much reflection, I realized my "happy childhood" was more like "the years I was oblivious to how much people despised me." FML
Today, I noticed that I feel the loneliest when I'm with my family. I was raised in group homes for most of my childhood and I'm sure my mother doesn't want me, and she hasn't for years. My brothers used to disappear as kids and just do what they wanted, whereas I'd be home before curfew and I rarely acted out but still I'm unwanted. FML
Today, I realized I don't have a family, I only have garbage people who have been sucking my time, my money, and my life from me. FML
Today, I realized that even if I want to have cute fun and admit when I was wrong, I still get "adulting sucks, get over it" when I joke that I "don't wanna grow apart or up too fast that you don't need me." Jesus, I realized after that there's no such thing as real love anymore. FML
Today, I'm so lonely that I actually convinced myself it was by choice. FML
Today, I noticed that my weekend hobby is crying. I live in a city where I don't have a single friend or relative. FML
Today, I finally noticed how lonely I am when I realized I was petting my couch while reading a book. FML
Today, I realized that I’m just living. Nothing I want matters. Just the same repetitive thing day after day. What must I do for things to change? FML
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Chazzster 32
And that’s why our goals change as we live our life.
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Chazzster 32
And that’s why our goals change as we live our life.