You would quite possibly benefit from some therapy with either a psychiatrist or psychologist, since after that many abusive relationships you are highly likely to have developed disorders in response to them. I also suggest backing away from the dating scene until you have the go ahead from whichever mental/emotional specialist you choose to see. You are lucky to be alive after that many abusive relationships, especially if they lasted any length of time.

<p>I think you need to reconsider your taste in men.</p>

Maybe you should talk to a therapist, because it seems there is a pattern to your poor choice of partners, which may have to do with your subconsciousness. Negative patterns can be broken, you can turn things around for yourself, op! I'm sure there's a great guy out there for you, and you can get him! Have a little faith

Hi! OP here. I couldn't clarify with the limited number of characters but my relationships were never physically abusive; however they were severely emotionally abusive, which on some levels can be almost as bad (for instance, one guy thought it was legitimately fun to blow up and scream at me almost daily over the tiniest of things, and another verbally abused me every time I wanted to spend time with friends that weren't him). They all seemed like stand-up guys at the beginning, too, so there was no way for me to know. All of their friends thought they were wonderful and caring. As for the therapy and stepping back from dating, I am in fact doing both of those things now. I'm even 8 months single, the longest that has happened in ten years! I live by myself, I have two cuddly kittens, and am on the way to emotional recovery. Thanks for the comments!