Get therapy ASAP. He's your son, not your boyfriend.

The police and CPS would be very interested in you.

In 20 years...My Mum won't accept my girlfriend because she has had a recurring dream about me betraying her.FML

You need help or you’ll lose your son before he’s an adult.

Having a wife or girlfriend isn't a betrayal. The whole point is to raise your child to be independent, leave the house, and start a new life without you. You need therapy.

why do you even view it as a betrayal?? you're weird

You sound like you want to be his girlfriend when he's grown up enough... You seriously need professional help before you turn into one of *those* mothers and he runs tf away from your sick idea of a 'healthy' relationship.

What kind of betrayal are you actually talking about?? He's your son, not your boyfriend or lover or husband. You must have some sort of a fetish and it's absolutely disgusting you even think of such a thing that has you losing sleep over it. A lot of boy mums are weird. Get help

you need professional help. this isn't a joke. go see a therapist, NOW!

You're just as disgusting and creepy as fathers who take issues with their daughters having boyfriends.