Are there red flags in him, or are you self sabotaging? Really consider it. Maybe talk to a close friend or councilor if you have one, walk through the layout of what you know factually. If you're self sabotaging, tell him. Admit that you are having trouble and let him help you work through it. Healing is never a simple process.

Therapy, if you're able. As someone who experienced similar things, therapy (DBT, specifically, for me) helped incredibly. Words can't describe how much help it's been. When looking for a therapist, do your research just as when looking for a doctor. There's a few modalities. To name a few: -Dialectical Behavior Therapy (DBT) -Acceptance & Commitment Therapy (ACT) -Compassion Focused Therapy (CFT) Remember that any therapist you find is working for *you*. You are allowed to ask for their qualifications, certifications, schooling, etc. You are allowed to tell them no. A very important question to ask them is if they *also* see a therapist. Any therapist that tells you they don't need their own therapist probably isn't a very good one. Best of luck! Hope you find a solution one way or another 💜