I'm very sorry. I know a few people that have herpes. They said after the first outbreak it wasnt so bad, just dont stay stressed out because that causes more outbreaks and causes them to stay longer. One friend had it so bad she had to pee in an ice cold bathtub because it burned so bad other wise. Another had to go to the hospital to be catherized ( spelling?) because she was too scared to pee because of the pain. Get medication, and possibly some therepy to help you through it. I wish you the best.